I think what he means is his only goal is to be alive at the end of the day. Something I sort of understand. When I was a kid I was considered way above par mentally in comparison to my peers and as a result people tended to expect much more from me. That sort of thing can cause an unnesessary amount of stress in a persons life, so I devoloped a self defence mechanism to protect myself. I act less intellegent than I really am. Today I ocassionaly let it slip but infrequently enough to not tip people off. I live a fairly stress free life as a result. Have you ever heard the phrase "ignorance is bliss"? That's what it means to me anyway...